Wednesday, December 4, 2013

soap box

I was reading a couple of articles about a few mommy fitness bloggers- and one I believe was a fitness model.  They were under complete scrutiny for showing their "post baby" pictures.  They still had abs, they still were fit, and they looked amazing!  I don't understand why these women are getting chastised for showing their amazing fit bodies!  
These women obviously worked extremely hard BEFORE they got pregnant to get fit.  So, yes after they had their babies they are going to look good!  I am playing catch-up I was exercising a little bit before I got pregnant with Tye, however, I wasn't in shape before any of my pregnancies.  I have taken month-by-month pictures of my transformation to a healthy life.  But I'm not quite sure I'm ready to share those yet. (I'm kinda white and pasty in the pictures!)  
I am proud to see how far I have come- I am so excited for these women who are fit post-baby.  I can't wait until I am that fit (I am 7 months post-baby and am in better shape than I've been in YEARS! But I am nowhere near their fitness level, YET!)  I really don't understand why someone being healthy and fit are getting so much flack!  They have put in the hard work, and trust me there is no "pill" or "easy way out" to getting fit.  It is lots of water, sweat, and kicking your own butt, and eating right EVERY DAY!  A quote that I love: "Get Fit at the Gym, Loose weight in the kitchen!"  I do have a picture to show part of my transformation thus far: 1st picture is my wedding day in 2009, second is in July of this year, and the last was taken today!  (My actual transformation pictures are the same angle and same day every month-)


 
 

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Banana Peanut Butter Chocolate Cake

Serves: 18
Calories: 63
11 g Carbs
4 g Protein
1 g Fat
6 g Sugar
46 mg Sodium



2 very ripe bananas
1/4 cup unsweetened apple sauce
2 tbsp creamy peanut butter (blend together!)

In a separate mixer:
1 cup oat flour
1/2 cup unpacked light brown sugar
1/4 cup truvia
1 scoop Dymatize Chocolate Peanut Butter Protein 
1 tsp baking powder
3/4 tsp baking soda 
Pinch of low sodium salt 

Mix wet/ dry ingredients together- then add three egg whites
Add about 1/4 cup of wheat flour to mixture to get it a thicker consistency

Bake at 350 for 20 mins
After baked you can put chocolate chips on it and melt them on it or it was amazing plain- Nutella would also be amazing if you want that extra chocolate taste!


 
 
 
 
 
 
 


 

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Reminder to Myself:

I am going to share my two biggest fears: Mirrors and trying on pants in a dressing room.  Yes, these are my biggest fears.  As I have been on this journey of getting healthy, I am being forced to get over my fears.  I have an amazing husband who has been helping me concur these irrational fears, and has made me feel beautiful through this whole process (and before as well!)  I started this journey to a healthy life in May of 2013, I had had my second child a month prior and I wanted to get fit and make sure my girls knew what living healthy was. Since my amazing husband had lost 65 lbs while I was pregnant, it was easy for me to fall into this healthy living once I had the green light after having my baby.  In July 2013 my husband learned of my fears: what an eye opening experience that was for him... (sorry babe!)  
We were going to be going on a family vacation to Disneyland, and I needed some pants- my mom watched the girls and we headed to the outlets by our house for me to try on some clothes (or so Derrick thought).  Instead, he saw me have a huge meltdown in a dressing room.  I had been working so hard for two months and I wasn't seeing any results.  I have this mental block with numbers, I don't know if it is because of society telling me that to be beautiful you need to be at the highest a size 4 or if it is because when I was at my smallest I fit into a size 2.  Either way, I was NOWHERE near that size, I was fitting into a 14- I broke down.  I was sick and tired of feeling Fat, Ugly, and Gross.  I was at a store trying on pants that I already had a fear of.  You see "Fat Annie" had shopped there before, and she "fat girl ripped" these pants at one time.  (I know anyone who has struggled with their weight knows what rip in your pants I'm talking about- the one down the inseam of your jeans- where it pulls so much that it starts to fray, then one day you are getting into your car or walking or getting up and they split- usually in the most inconvient time. You know the "fat girl rip")  I didn't want to try on these pants because I already had a mental block that I would be ugly in them.  As I tried to pull these past my thighs and I muffin topped myself into these things I lost it. When I looked in the mirror all I could see was "Fat Annie"  I started bawling, not just tears but uncontrollable shaking.  Derrick happened to be bringing me a couple other styles of jeans when this happened.  He handled this in the most amazing way I could have imagined.  He let me cry for a second, then he wiped away my tears and told me how beautiful I was- and that I had just given him his second child and I needed to let my body heal, that yes my hips were going to be little wider, for now- but that I would have my body back soon. But most importantly he told me that I was beautiful, and I believed him.  He then told me I didn't have to try on any more of these pants if I didn't want to (and I sure as hell didn't want to) We left the store, I think I only ended up getting one pair of pants at another store that day because I just couldn't bare the thought of purchasing that size of pants.  
On the way to the car after this horrible experience Derrick knew I needed a little "tough love" (oh does that man know me all too well!)  He asked me if I wanted to change, if I wanted to get healthy for the right reasons (for myself, not for him, or the girls, but if I wanted to change for ME!)  I truly did- so he helped me set up a plan for how I was going to get fit, healthy, and how I was going to start feeling better about myself!  I have been doing this now for 6 months (I am in my 4th month with my new plan and motivation)  I have started seeing results, not just in my body, but in myself!  I am proud of myself, I am starting to see myself as my husband has seen me for years!  But for those hard days, when 4 AM seems too daunting, or when you feel like you aren't at your best, or you feel like giving up REMEMBER:
*You have an amazing support system.  (Thank You to all who have helped me on my journey to a healthy life)
*You are beautiful. (Again, Thank You to all who have made me feel this way, Even when I don't see it)
*See how far you have come
*Be proud of yourself (You are no longer in a size 14, you are in a 6!)
*You can run as long as you set your mind to
*If you think you can't, you are right!
*Getting fit isn't a number it is a lifestyle
*You are doing this the right way!
*The hard work is paying off
*Don't let one bad day dictate your future
*Set goals, then CRUSH them!
*It isn't going to be easy, but it WILL be worth it! 
*EAT! (Healthy foods, not binge)
*Because you are doing this the right way- it will stay off
*No more yo-yo diets
*Most importantly LOVE YOURSELF! 
 
 

Monday, November 11, 2013

Mock Zupas Chicken Enchilada Soup

Chicken cut into chunks and browned with 1 small white onion (you can also use shredded chicken) I use for a LARGE pot worth 2 large chicken breasts or 3 small/medium sized ones.
2 cups of low sodium chicken broth
1 6 oz can of tomato paste (and 1 can worth of water)
1 can of Rotel
1 can of green chilies w/ the liquid
1 can of black beans rinsed and drained
1 tbsp mince garlic
1 tbsp chili powder
1/2 tsp cumin

Put all of the above ingredients into a large pot and put on a medium heat
*In a small sauce pan you'll be making the Roux: (all on a low/medium heat)
1/4 cup butter melted in small sauce pan
whisk in 1/2 cup flour until it makes a smooth lump (don't try using wheat flour- it doesn't work...I need to experiment with unflavored protein powder...but haven't had time to try!)
Once it is a smooth lump add 1 cup of skim milk
Whisk that until the sauce is smooth
Sprinkle cheese over the top of the sauce (I use about a 1/4 of a cup- 1/2 cup)
Melt Cheese into the Roux and make sure it smooths back out 
**SLOWLY add the Roux to the pot of soup to thicken it up and give it the cheesy/creamy taste!

***If you want to give this more of a kick add 2 tbsp chili powder
****OR if you are serving it for wimps, add about a cup of corn to it to tame the flavor down

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Oatmeal Almond Joy Cookies

So...I may have forgotten a couple pieces of almond joys...like putting an almond on the top of these...oops! Next time though!


1 cup oat flour (literally just grind up in a blender dry oatmeal)
1/4 cup apple sauce
1/4 cup truvia
1/2 cup unpacked brown sugar
1 tbsp butter or butter substitute (I did use margarine...which normally I never would but I ran out of apple sauce)
1/2 cup milk chocolate chips
1 egg 
1/2 cup unsweetened coconut flakes
1 cup oats
1/2 tsp baking soda (heaping)
pinch of salt 


Mix together sugars and butter to kinda make it "creamy"
Throw everything into a bowl and mix together.
Bake at 350 for 9 mins
take out at the 9- mine kept cooking after I took them out of the oven!

This made 28 cookies:

76 Calories, 11 grams of Carbs, 3 grams of Fat, 2 grams protein, 7 mg in sodium/sugar.

*next time I make this I will most likely add protein to it as well as an almond sliver on top.  I have been trying to make sure in my baking I add protein because with my current lifestyle change the stage I am  in I need more protein in my diet, and this is a good way for me to mask it without feeling like I'm only eating chicken and eggs! (Also, Happy note- I am half way to my goal weight!)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Monday, October 28, 2013

oatmeal cookies








Yields: 4 dozen

6 packets instant oatmeal
1/2 cup whole wheat flour
1/2 cup Dymatize Vanilla Protein Powder
pinch of salt substitute
3/4 tsp baking soda
1 tsp baking powder
1/4 cup truvia
1/2 tbsp cinnamon
1/2 tbsp apple spice seasoning
in blender:
3/4 cup pumpkin
1/2 cup unsweetened apple sauce
1 banana


mix pumpkin mix into dry ingredients and add 3 egg whites
Bake at 350 degrees for 8 mins
right after you take them out of the oven add three milk chocolate chips to each cookie (while they are still hot to make sure that they melt onto cookie!)
each cookie is: 31 calories, 6 grams carbs, 1 gram fat, 2 grams protein, 17 gram sodium, 1 gram sugar  

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

April 27th

I normally do not talk religion nor do I write more than one post in a year... However, during the last year I have had quite a few spiritual experiences that at this point I feel I can share. April 27th 2012 was one of the hardest days I've ever had, as a woman, as a mother, as a human, and as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. On April 27th, 2012 I lost my second child- I was around 10 weeks pregnant, yes I know that so many people have had miscarriages and that it is a "normal" thing. However for me, it was devastating. I questioned so many things in my life at that moment. I tried being strong telling my sister and my mom over the phone that I had to have a D & C because my body hadn't recognized the fetus had stopped developing at 6 weeks. I was given a few options as how to "terminate" the pregnancy. I decided the best option was to have a D & C, so on April 27th at 4:30 in the morning I was at the hospital waiting for this to happen. I did have a very positive doctor who was saying there was no reason why I would have to wait to try and get pregnant again. 
 Yes, I wanted this to be over and I wanted to look past this and get started on expanding my family. A couple of days after my surgery I received a call from my Dr's office (just a secretary) saying that there were some weird pathogens in the fetus and not to worry it most likely was cancerous. Yes, not to worry that most likely it was cancerous, so not only had I lost a child- but that I might have had cancer. I was trying to process this information as I called Derrick, he immediately started stressing even more and made me call back and talk to someone else. I did and I was told I had to go in and get my blood drawn every week until my HGC levels were below 5, yes the single digit 5.  To ensure that it wasn't cancerous, We had to wait to start trying again until this happened, or it would be a HUGE sign that I did have cancer not a miscarriage/cancer.  My first draw was a week after my D & C and it was in the 18,000! (Not only did I have to go to the hospital at 6 am each friday to get this done, but the registration nurse asked if I was getting my HCG levels checked because of my abortion. Not miscarriage, but ABORTION! I bawled the whole way home from the hospital!) I had 5 weeks of blood draws before my HGC levels were below 5! That was such an awesome phone call from the nurse, she was just as excited as I was!  
I physically started healing, however, emotionally I struggled for MONTHS! A few months after my miscarriage I was so blessed to become pregnant again, I was extrememly fearful to tell anyone this time around.  I waited until I was 13/14 weeks before we told anyone (Ok so I take that back, both of our moms knew-but that was it).  I waited until the heartbeat was super strong, I paniced each time I felt a pain.  I wanted this baby, but I feared something was going to go wrong.  It wasn't until after our second appointment with the doctor that it finally felt real and right! I was finally going to have another baby! I had a very healthy and "normal" pregnancy- I was a high risk pregnancy with Zoe, so to have everything go acording to plan with Tye was just a miracle in and of itself!  
I threw up so much more with this pregnancy, I had aches and pains, I had heartburn, and I LOVED every second of my pregancy.  I was thankful for it.  No, I didn't like most of it, but I LOVED that I was pregnant with a healthy baby girl.  I was blessed.  I knew that the Lord had a plan for me and my family.  I knew that I was going to be ok, and that I would eventually be able to help others who had/have gone through this!  I am finally ready to tell my story, I don't know why it has taken me over a year and a half to tell it.  I think I have been shown courage from so many others who have gone through this, many who have hidden the fact that they have lost a child from everyone around them.  We live in a day and age where it is starting to be talked about more, where it is being accepted.  I wish that people would reach out to others when someone goes through this tragic loss and create a support system for them.  I had an amazing support system from my husband, and my family.  But outside of my family, noone else knew.
I was about 7 months pregnant when I figured out what April 27th really was.  One year to the day of my miscarriage was my due date for Tye.  It doesn't make me forget or replace my loss, but it does help me remember to treasure every moment I have with my healthy baby girl! And how blessed I am to have been able to get pregnant.  
I do have a little bit of advice for those who haven't dealt with this before:   
#1- Think about the husband (or father of the child) they too are going through an emotional time, they too have lost a child, even though they don't have the physical aspect of it they do have the emotional side of it. Everyone forgets about the husband during this time. And as a wife trying to recover I was trying to help him with his pain too.

#2- I don't want to hear about the multitude of miscarriages that people can have. I had one, I don't want to hear that Betty Sue had 7 of them! That is NOT encoraging. I want more children I DO NOT WANT TO GO THROUGH THIS SIX MORE TIMES THANK YOU!

#3- Let us grieve anyway we want. One day I might want to talk about it, but the next I want to act as though it never happened. 

#4- Don't ask me becasue my child is getting around the age of two, when I'm going to have another- trust me I wish I knew. And if all I can do is give a weak smile when you ask don't make up some assuption as to why- ("Oh you see that! She doesn't want any more"- Really?!?!)

#5- Its ok to ask me how I'm doing, my answer might be a lie- but at least you are giving me the option to tell you the truth.

#6- Don't give me the pitty look- I am still me.

#7- You can still tell me if you are having a bad day- I might be going through my own issues right now, but it doesn't mean I can't help you with yours! 
 I hope and pray that one day if someone else goes through this and needs to talk about it, or needs a shoulder to cry on, or someone to be mad about the situation with.  I want to be there for them.  I hate that we live in a day and age when this tragic loss still has to be hidden!  I have been blessed and I know that one day I will be able to raise my baby, my husband was amazing through this experience.  He always stayed positive through the entire ordeal, he wanted a family as much as I did, and he is my rock!  I love him every day for this!  I love my girls, and am blessed to be their mother! I love my family and hope that I can help others who might be struggling with this!

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Protein Pumpkin Muffins

I love the fall, I love pumpkin, I love the desserts, but this year was going to be different.  I needed to find a healthy alternative to my love for desserts!  Here is the alternative for pumpkin bread!

1/2 cup oat flour *
1/2 cup vanilla protein (I use Dymatize Elite Gourmet French Vanilla Protein Powder)
1 tsp pumpkin spice
1 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt (I use a lower sodium salt)
1 cup pumpkin puree (I used canned pumpkin)
1/4 cup Truvia Sugar 
1/2 cup un-packed brown sugar (next time I'm going to try honey instead)
1/2 cup apple sauce
2 egg whites
5 chocolate chips for each cupcake! (just to give it the chocolate kick!)
350 degrees for 18-20 mins


* to make oat flour, get the 1/2 cup of oats, put it into your blender and blend into a fine powder, don't over blend or the blades will get hot and make the oats stick together and make a paste 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

GUILT FREE Ice Cream

Now that I have figured this out, I purposely buy too many bananas to make sure some go "bad" so that I can make this!
Base Recipe:
2 very ripe bananas
(Yes that is the only ingredient in it)
Pill and chop up bananas (into slices) and put them into a sandwich bag and put it in the freezer 
I have found that it works best if they have been in the freezer AT LEAST overnight
Put the frozen bananas into a blender, food processor, or ninja ( I have used ALL three of these, but I use my Ninja the most- but the other two work just as well!)

At first when the bananas are getting blended it looks like Dip-n-Dots ice cream, the more it is blended, it turns into MAGIC! 
Some reason when frozen bananas are blended the texture turns into an ice cream like texture!
This makes a big enough bowl for Derrick and I to share, but if you want to have it yourself you can without feeling guilty!


Now for the Raspberry or Peaches N' Cream:

Frozen Raspberries or Peaches, or whatever flavor you might want! (just freeze up that fruit- I had a bunch of extra fruit from a few weeks ago that was about to go bad so I put them in sandwich bags and threw them into the freezer for a rainy day) 
After you have made the banana "ice cream" take it out of the blender and put in it a separate bowl.   
Put frozen Raspberries into Blender and chop them up- after they are almost a fine powder add the banana ice cream back into the blender and re-blend it back up!  It turns into a tart raspberry ice cream!  I put it into a bowl and added a small dollop of fat free whip cream just for the "creamy" part.
I did the same technique for the Peaches N Cream, I didn't wash out my blender between the two so the peaches had a little bit of raspberry swirled in it!  It was quite amazing!

HINT: if you are using a Ninja, use the metal blade piece first, then after it is chopped I replace it for the "whipping" square-ish piece for the creamy texture!

HINT: if you are using a blender or food processor, it will seem like you are blending for a VERY long time, but it will turn into ice cream, to speed up the process, add small amounts of banana at a time to make your base!

Even if you aren't a fan of bananas once you add the other fruit in with it, it completely masks the flavor of the bananas- if it doesn't...add more fruit! 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Monday, September 23, 2013

Protien Pancakes



1 cup Almond Milk
1 tbsp vinegar (or lemon juice)
1/2 cup whole wheat flour
1/2 cup vanilla protein (I use Dymatize Elite Gourmet French Vanilla)
1/2 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp baking soda
1/4 tsp salt
2 tsp sugar (I use Truvia instead of sugar)
1 egg white
2 tbsp olive oil


Mix the almond milk and vinegar together (you want to "sour the milk") and let sit while you combine all dry ingredients together.  Mix in all wet ingredients (don't over mix, let it be a tiny bit clumpy, this will make for a fluffier pancake)   If it seems WAY too runny add a little more protein powder or flour to thicken it.  

We like to eat ours with a little bit of Biscoff Cookie Butter and sliced bananas and top it off with walnuts.  You can do a variation with it though, syrup, or nutella and strawberries.  Options are endless!   
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Monday, July 29, 2013

Razor Scooters and Pig Tails

In your mind picture a chubby girl (not just chubby...borderline obese) with piggy tails in her hair, glasses, missing teeth, riding around on a razor scooter.  Can you picture it?  This is who I refer to as Fat Annie.  I was about 8 years old.  I knew it was important to be healthy and eat right and exercise.  My parents were VERY active people, my mom taught water aerobics every morning at 5:30 (and/or ran) and my dad ran or biked every morning as well.  They had shown us through example how important healthy living was.  All of us kids were involved in sports, we competitively swam, played soccer, gymnastics, and many other sports to name just a few.  Even though I knew the importance of this...I still was a chubby kid.  My eating habits just didn't mean anything to me...I would over eat.  My parents got very worried about my health and I was sent to a nutritionist.  This helped a little bit, but I was still a chubby one.  I played Soccer and Swam, but the exercise I was doing wasn't enough.  
I went through Jr High and yes I was still chubby, I know how cruel kids can be, I was made fun of frequently.  Thankfully, I was blessed with a few best friends who I will always be grateful for, they didn't seem to care or notice my weight.  They are the reason the getting made fun of didn't scar me.  I stuck with these friends and continued to play soccer and got involved in Student Government.  Which helped boost my self esteem.  I was in 9th grade, our school was part of a national program that was to help get schools more fit.  This program provided weight lifting rooms for the schools, and in return the kids were weighed at the beginning of the semester and each month for the term of the class.  This was the start of turning point for me.  I loved lifting weights, and it helped with my run time.  I knew my weight was out of control at this point in my life, but it wasn't until recently that I knew how bad it really was.  I was biking every morning with my parents who would run at least 5 miles, and then with the lifting at school, I started to see results. I lost quite a bit of weight during this school year, I was addicted to it!
For most people this would seem like an awesome thing being addicted to getting fit for a chubb-ster like me.  However, it got out of control during the summer.  I was trying to get onto the Varsity Soccer team, so I was going to soccer camps, weight lifting classes, running on my own, and more training.  In total I was exercising at least 6 hours every day (most days it was 8 hours).  This doesn't seem like a bad idea, until you understand I wasn't eating when I was doing this.  Eating while I was exercising made me sick, so I just wasn't eating.  You better believe the pounds started shedding I lost a TON of weight that summer close to 60 lbs, I was addicted to exercising, I was malnourished, and I was an unhappy person, I was super bitchy to say the least. It was time for tryouts for the soccer team.  I made it all the way through try-outs every cut up until they posted the teams. I didn't make the team. I was relieved.  Soccer wasn't fun to me anymore.  I still wanted to be in shape and have "friends" and get dates at this point (I was 15...so that seemed like the important thing to me!) But Soccer wasn't the way I wanted to do it anymore.  I went from a size 14 at the start of the summer down to size 2-4 at the start of my Sophomore year.  I gained a little bit of weight back, which is expected because I started eating again, but I stayed at about a 6-7 through my Junior year.  I was super involved in school and I got busy, and stopped exercising.  I honestly don't know how much I gained or what pant size I was my senior year.  
I moved away for College to SUU, I was determined to not gain the Freshman 15!  I got a gym membership, and I was very careful about my exercise, I couldn't let myself get addicted to it again as bad as I did.  I had to be very strict and keep to the letter of my plan, to make sure I didn't get out of control again.  I didn't want to be in that place again.  After my freshman year I didn't gain the 15, thankfully!  I started working at Great Harvest that summer, I didn't gain weight while working there, which is shocking, but that is where I found my love for whole wheat bread.  I was eating pretty healthy working there, I'd eat half a sandwich for lunch and the rest for dinner.  I soon decided I had outgrown Cedar City and so I got an awesome job and moved to Vegas.
Once I moved to Vegas, I met D, we dated, got married, and I stopped working out.  My gym membership didn't work in Vegas, and well...things got out of control again.  I gained weight, We gained weight.  I may not have gained the Freshman 15...but the First Year 30 came back with a vengeance.  For both of us!   I didn't notice the weight gain on myself or on D, because we saw each other every day.  I got pregnant with Zoe, I was worried about getting weighed at my Dr's appointments.  I HATE SCALES!  It takes me back to the place of when every day I would step on the scale and judge myself.  I didn't look at the scale when I was pregnant...I would turn my head when they would weigh me at my appointments.  I ended up gaining 24 lbs during my pregnancy, which I was able to take off soon after I delivered her.  But I was still WAY overweight.  We ended up moving up to Utah when Zoe was about 6 months old, and it wasn't for another year before I started going back to the gym.  My dad has always encouraged healthy living, so I started going to spin classes, I loved them!  I felt great, and I started to get fit.  I went 4 days a week.  I ended up having to stop them when I got pregnant with Tye.  But because D was now going to the gym and starting his lifestyle change I too changed my eating habits.  I only gained 12 lbs with my pregnancy.  
I left the hospital at my pre-pregnancy weight, and as soon as I was cleared post-baby I started going back to the gym.  I have been working out now for a little over two months. It hasn't been easy, I have had to work my gym time around D's work schedule.  So that means on Monday and Tuesday I get up at 4 in the morning to get to the gym at 4:30 to work out before he goes to work.  I was trying to do this on my own.  I wasn't seeing the results I wanted, in fact I felt like I was bigger than I was before, I was using MyFitnessPal, and I wasn't going over my calorie intake, and I had taken a few pounds off, but not what I wanted.  I had a total meltdown in a dressing room trying on pants.  At that moment D offered to coach me through it, I am now on an even stricter exercise routine, and my eating habits have to change, I need to eat more lean proteins, and I have to eat breakfast!  
Every person is different and each body reacts differently to different exercises.  So every day I am to do an hour of cardio.  This isn't just walking or a light jog on the elliptical, this is an hour of HARD cardio.  I do 40 mins on the spin bike, then I do 20 mins on the elliptical at a low level and a fast run (for me it is at least 8 min mile) Then the next day I switch it up and do 40 mins on the elliptical and 20 mins on the spin bike.  I go to the gym 5 days a week.  Before I go to the gym I force myself to eat breakfast, not just a little bit, but I have to eat a meal.  I eat oatmeal and usually a banana.  I make sure that I stay hydrated during my workout. Once I get home I make a protein shake and have that within 10 to 15 mins of my workout.  My snacks are things like string cheese, pretzels, and almonds.   It has only been a week that I have done this new routine and my mile time the first day was a 12 min mile, then it went to an 8 min mile.  
I am writing this down and actually sharing it because I know how hard it is to keep weight off, I have been a yo-yo dieter/ work-outer for years, I have been the chubby kid, the skinny unhealthy one, and I have been unhappy with my image.  I am ready to make a life change, for me!  I want my kids and D to have me around for a long time, I want them to know that being healthy is important.  When Zoe asks where I am going in the mornings, I tell her the gym, when she asks why I say to get fit.  I don't want either of my girls to have an unhealthy image of what "skinny" is, I want them to be healthy and fit.  And I want to be able to be a role model for my girls in this, I don't want them to get this from the media.  I am on a plan that is achieve able, it is a small step, it isn't anything drastic.  But it is a step that I needed to take.  I can sacrifice ONE hour of sleep to workout and set that example for my girls.  I make sure that I am proud of myself when I hit a milestone.  Like today, I did my first 6 min mile, no I couldn't keep that pace up the whole time, but I did one mile at that pace! Tomorrow, I'll see if I can do two miles at that pace!  D has been my inspiration to keep this up.  I love how much he encourages me.  He handled my meltdown in the dressing room well, he had a solution, he is helping me get to where I want to be.  He motivates me.  I am ready to stop seeing myself as "Fat Annie".  I will always remember those times in my life where I was unfit and unhealthy, because it helps keep me going at the gym to run my guts out!  When I see a bowl of oatmeal and I don't want to choke it down anymore, I will remember that to get fit it isn't just about exercise, it is two parts, exercise and EATING.  I am doing this for me.  This is for my own benefit, it is to make sure that I keep going, I have goals that I have set and I will achieve.  Yes, it will take time, and Yes, it is going to be hard.  But the hardest part is over...starting!  
 
 
 
 

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Energy Bites

These are a treat that we really like
No-Bake Energy Bites
1 cup oatmeal (not instant)
1/2 cup almond butter
1/3 cup honey
1/2 cup dried cranberries
1/2 cup of ground flax seed
(to grind the flax seed, I take whole flax seeds and put it in my food processor for about 3 to 5 mins until it is a powder)
1 tsp vanilla
Mix this all together and put in fridge for 30 mins
Take out of fridge and scoop with cookie scoop (do the mini one)

These last a couple of weeks in the fridge!
These are about 60 calories a piece! Super filling and cut that sweet craving!
these are another one that we have tried, if you want a different flavor! I like the dried cranberries better...to me the coconut and chocolate chips was just a little too much!

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Living a Healthy Life

Warning: this is going to be a lengthy post.
It all started a little over a year ago... D and I were trying to get healthy...we had really yo-yo'd with our being "healthy" and doing regular exercise. Then last April after we had our miscarriage we decided things needed to change! D went to the doctor to make sure that he was healthy and to check his heart, cholesterol, and just an overall physical. He had borderline high blood pressure and just not what he wanted to see in his blood work and weight (217 lbs). Having a family history of high BP, heart issues, and high cholesterol he knew that he wanted to make a change right then and there to make sure he was here a long time for his kids!
My dad was gracious enough to get both of us gym memberships to Golds Gym. I started going to spin classes 4 days a week and I loved it! I wasn't as moody; I was going to get healthy before I got pregnant again! I was going to spin classes, but my eating habits just weren't great. I was working full time and wasn't eating well balanced meals...when I was eating it was a box of crackers, or just something quick! D was also starting to go to the gym...but having broken his ankle right after we had Zo he had to go get X-rays and get his ankle worked on with physical therapy because it was causing his so much pain.
I was about 10 weeks pregnant and I had stopped going to spin classes, not because I didn't like them but I was worried I'd miscarry again...at this point in time D was in full swing at the gym, he found out he didn't have to have surgery and that the exercises he was doing at physical therapy were ones he could do at the gym. He was happier and he was starting to feel better. At this point it was October. D was going to the gym 5 days a week and I though he looked great he was healthy and he was really starting to show the weight loss. He started to change the way he ate at this point as well.
He started using the app MyFitnessPal to track his calorie intake and at that point we realized how unhealthy our diet really was. No we weren't going out to eat every night we cooked at home, and we did cook with Olive Oil when we did use oil. But, our portion sizes were insane. We were eating chicken a lot (which is great) but eating it with 4 or 5 tortillas sure does add up the calories! We made small changes at first like cutting the oil out of our cooking, chicken doesn't need oil to cook, you can use a tiny bit of water and it does the trick just as well. We cut down on our carb intake and switched to whole wheat (we gradually did this since we both love breads!) We noticed how much we were eating sweets, and where I was pregnant...that is ALL I wanted, I would crave candy like nobody's business. So instead of eating a full candy bar I would eat a fun sized one...I did eat a LOT more candy and sweets than D did because I was pregnant and it would give me the boost I needed to survive a 10 1/2 hour day at work (still not a good reason or excuse...but I'm still standing by that for the time being)
December rolled around and the holidays were here...D stuck to his healthy eating habits, yes he did still eat Thanksgiving pies, and Christmas treats, he hasn't eliminated them from his diet, just portion controlled them, and by using an app like MyFitnessPal, he has been able to track what he has eaten and how he can still have a treat now and again and still stick to his allotted calories for the day. At this point in time, we had to buy him a whole new wardrobe...none of his clothes fit anymore! I was so proud of him! Thankfully we were able to go down to visit his family in Vegas right after Christmas and we bought him clothes and a new suit- he was able to get a SlimFit suit and he was happy and healthy! He was down to a size 36 pant from a 40! He was still going to the gym 5 days a week but he was now increasing the amount of calories burned at the gym when he first started he wouldn't leave unless he burned at least 450 calories, by January he was up to almost 900 calories burned at the gym each time he went. It took him quite a while to get up to that point, but he was determined to get healthy and fit. He never once has called what he is doing a diet, it isn't a diet, its a new way of life, it is a getting healthy life change! I have never known anyone who is able to stick to a diet after a certain period of time they always fall back into old habits. But I have known people who have gotten fit and healthy and stayed that way for good! Where D was eating right and we were cooking at home more or when we did go out it wasn't usually fast food is was somewhere that would have healthier options to choose from. (Yes we did do the occasional In-and-Out burger or Sonic). I was 7 months pregnant and went to the Doctor; I had only gained 9 lbs at this point in my pregnancy. I was eating differently, (yes still eating my candy and sugar,) but eating healthier because D was. I did have a higher calorie intake than D just to keep up with my pregnancy, but I hadn't gained nearly as much weight this pregnancy than I did with Zo.
March rolled around and we had to buy D another whole new wardrobe because he had shrunk out of all of his clothes that we got in January. I won a trip at work and we went to San Francisco, there was a night where we had to get all fancy and D wore his suit that we had got him in January, it looked like when a kid puts on their dads clothes...(thank goodness that he finds great deals on clothes! and that we were able to sell most of his clothes we bought in January to Plato's Closet!) I was worried I wouldn't be able to go on the trip for work because with Zo I was on a high risk pregnancy and wasn't able to travel after 30 weeks. This trip was when I was 35 to 36 weeks pregnant. I talked to my doctor and he was totally fine with me traveling, I had gained 12 lbs at this point in my pregnancy and he was very happy with my weight gain (he even high-fived me...)and where I wasn't in a risky pregnancy I had the green light! We went to San Francisco and loved it! We walked everywhere, on our free-day we ended up walking the city. D ended up figuring out that we walked almost 10 miles that day...yes we were VERY slow walking it, but we did it! Even while we were there D would go to the gym and work out. He didn't do as much as he normally does but he still went every day we were there.
D is VERY diligent in using his app and tracking his food. It puts things into perspective. I never really paid much attention to how many calories are in things...(if you want to make yourself a little sick...look up how many calories are in a Blondie from Applebee's.) With MyFitnessPal you can say how many lbs you want to lose each week, (2 lbs is the max allowance) and you enter in your current weight and it calculates how many calories you should eat each day to lose that weight. If you exercise it adds more calories onto it, however, D would stick to the original calorie intake that was allotted to him. At first the calculation was 1200 calories a day, then after a certain weight loss amount it recalculates and re-adjusts your calorie in-take allotment. So for D it was 1200 calories, 1500 calories, and currently is at 1700 calories, the nice thing about this app is it gives you a breakdown of how many carbs, fats, and protein should be in your diet.
D was making me walk quite a bit after 37 weeks to try and get the baby here, I am thankful for this because I was healthier I didn't gain any more weight in my pregnancy. I was up 12 lbs and then the week before I delivered I was down a 11 lbs above my pre-pregnancy weight. I solely attribute this to D and his life-style change and healthy eating habits. I was so much healthier with this pregnancy. And although I wasn't able to do much gym exercising I was able to make a change and difference because D did! (To put this into perspective with Zo I gained 24 lbs) When I did go into labor I had a much easier and quicker labor/delivery (I went into labor at about 5:30 went to the hospital at 8 and had Tye at 9:41 with Zo I went to the hospital at 6 went into active labor after being induced at Midnight, and had a horrible labor lost Zo's heart beat, and eventually delivered at noon. I was much healthier when I had Tye and I think that is why I had a smoother delivery and such a quick delivery and RECOVERY!)
D has made it to his weight-loss goal he has lost over 65 lbs since September. He is currently trying to tone-up with lean muscle. He could bulk up really easily however, he doesn't want that. He spends about 8 to 10 hours a week at the gym doing cardio and lifting. He just went to the doctor to get a check-up he no longer has high BP, his resting heart rate was at 56, he is no longer at risk for heart issues, high cholesterol. His body fat % is under 11%! He no longer has ankle pain (due to the weight loss and strength he has gained from running and lifting weights). He has made a true transformation in his life! Zo knows every day that her Daddy goes to the gym…she always goes to the door and says she too is going to the gym. We want our kids to know that we value healthy living and that we exercise and eat our healthy foods!
Now that I am post-pregnancy I have been able to also start up my exercise routine, I have had to start slow, but I am following D's example and using MyFitnessPal and going to the gym 5 days a week. Being a mom it’s hard to find time to go, but if you make it a priority it isn't as hard, I go at 4:30 in the morning on days D works and go before D on days that he doesn't. It has been a month so far and I am down 11 lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight. We both use a heart-monitor calorie counter I have the FT4 and D uses the FT5 it honestly is awesome because it gives a more accurate calorie burning count and it is personalized to you. I am using MyFitnessPal and I have an allotted 1200 calories each day- I don't feel like I am constantly hungry, I do eat, it’s just I have a better knowledge of what types of food have more calories and better substitutions for them. (I do still have treats; I just try and switch fruits and veggies for them on most days!) I still have a LONG way to go on my plan but I have a goal in mind, and I have shared this with D and he is more than supportive with me and is encouraging me every step of the way! I picked out a "prize" I wanted once I hit my goal weight. (I want new family pictures taken, I know people that purchase an outfit that they'd want to fit into, or pick something that you want!) I know that I don't have much room to talk when it comes to advice, but this is advice D gives people that ask him, and this is what I am doing now.
People are always asking D how he did it, and what he did to lose so much weight. His response is always the same...If you are looking for a pill or easy way to do it, I'm sorry it doesn't exist. It's through changing the way I ate and exercise with lots of cardio.
Things D changed in his diet that we have now changed almost completely in our home:
Instead of cooking with Olive Oil: Use water
Instead of using sour cream: plain greek yogurt
Instead of Peanut Butter: Almond butter (I like the one that has a little maple flavoring it is a little sweeter)
Instead of white bread: whole wheat bread or the bread thins
Instead of white tortillas: whole wheat low carb high fiber tortillas
Instead of regular yogurt: greek yogurt (yes some brands are completely gross, but we have found a couple brands that we really like!)
Instead of chips: pretzels (you still get the salty crunch that you would crave)
Instead of candy: flavored almonds (the butter toffee is my all-time favorite!)
Instead of mayo: avocado
When baking:
Use egg whites instead of whole eggs
Use applesauce instead of oil (this doesn't always work...when oil is needed use olive oil it doesn't change the taste of baked goods!)
Use Whole Wheat Flour over White Flour
Use oats
Experiment with flax-seed
Use natural sweeteners (honey is a good one!)
We do have some awesome recipes that we have experimented with to "health-ify" things...if anyone is interested just let us know we'd be more than happy to share!
The key is moderation in sweets and unhealthy foods, it is all about healthy eating AND exercise! Become knowledgeable about what you are eating: a combo meal is normally over 1200 calories (that would be my total daily allowance of calories!)! Keep track some way of what you are eating (food journal, MyFitnessPal, or some other way that helps you keep track!) The things that you hate are normally what you need most aka CARDIO! Eat more filling foods like proteins and whole wheat! Look at serving sizes! Put the serving size in baggies so you don't have a full bag of it in front of you, I promise you'll lose track! Have someone you can "report" to, just someone who either is doing it with you, or someone you can talk to about your successes or someone that can keep you on track!
I have asked D on multiple occasions to write a blog about his life-style change, and he is a little too busy to do so at this point...So I am doing it for him! He has made such a transformation in his life and has done it through hard work and determination. If this helps even ONE person make a change then it was worth sharing!
Here are a few before and current transformation picts of D:

Monday, March 18, 2013

Remember the time...

2013 didn't start out how we would have liked, I hate that I have to post this in past tense but I believe it needs to be said- Remember the time: Seth would hide our shoes so we couldn't leave Grandma Karen's house... Seth would say the dinner prayer and would pray for the alligators, sharks, and every animal under the sun... Seth was playing Hoopla and was trying to describe Madonna (aleagueofverone?)... Seth would show everyone his birthmark... Seth would go downstairs and would be cuddled up next to his dad... Seth was the second funniest kid in his school... Seth ate 5 ice creams at my wedding just to get a girls number (and no he never asked for it, just kept going back for more ice cream)... Seth would look up to his brother... Seth would be sitting at Grandma's kitchen table and would have the biggest grin on his face when we would show up... Seth's laugh would make everyone's day... Seth talking music... Seth talking TheChive... Seth being a steady rock in his family... Seth being everyone's best friend... Seth would light up any room he was in... trying to explain to people how he wasn't just my cousin... I got the phone call at 10:20 at night that made my heart drop, made me think I was in a dream, made me wish it was a nightmare... Remember the time, that we had to say goodbye. It was the hardest goodbye I've had to say- I loved my cousin and I miss him everyday- I hope that I can live my life the way he lived his, he lived life at the fullest and he never saw anything negative in life, he just lived and lived it well! I want my children to know who he was, and how he lived. I hope that I can live my life in the way that he did so that my children can see how life should be lived and loved. Remember the time, I wish I would have hidden your shoes so that you didn't leave yet? Seth thank you for being such an amazing example to us.